Conversion of St. Paul Acts
9:1-22 1/25/04
Have
You Had A Conversion?
Have you ever had someone ask if you are "saved"? I
usually feel a good deal of annoyance when I hear that
question. In the first place, it’s none of the
questioner’s business. In the second place, to me,
implied if not actually stated in the question, is the
belief that "I" must do something to be saved. In
fact, the first question is nearly always followed by a
second question, "Have you accepted Jesus as your
personal Lord and Savior?" What the person is getting at
and what as a Lutheran I find so objectionable, is the
idea that the person to be saved must make a "decision
for Christ" - must choose to believe.
Of course, we Lutherans,following the teachings of
St. Paul, know that we can’t do anything
to be saved, not even decide to believe in Jesus. God
has already saved us through the death and
resurrection of His Son. Furthermore, even our belief in
Jesus comes through the work of the Holy Spirit in our
hearts. Thus, the answer to the person who asks, "Are
you saved?" is a resounding "YES". We can even go a step
further, as Art Anderson does, and give our baptismal
date.
Conversion, on the other hand, is a process, and if
someone asked if or when we were converted the answer
could be, "I’m still being converted."
Based on the conversion of St. Paul, there are three
points of conversion. In the first, Paul had to
experience a conversion of his hearing. Paul had been
hearing of Jesus and seeing the faith of Jesus’
followers for a long time. He was even present when
Stephen became the first Christian martyr. In his raids
on Christian homes, Paul surely heard Christians witness
about Christ. But, if was only after he heard
Jesus speak from heaven that his hearing was converted
so that he could perceive the truth.
Most, perhaps all, of us have been hearing about
Jesus practically from birth. I believe I can safely say
that even if there was a time in our lives when we lost
interest in church, none of us ever actively opposed the
practice of the Christian faith.
But, even if familiarity does not breed contempt, it
can breed indifference or apathy. We may hear the
beginning of the reading of the Gospel and think, "Oh
that old story again," and then let our minds wander. We
may in fact, only give full attention back to the
service when the assisting minister says, "Go in peace.
Serve the Lord." The Gospel, the worship service and the
whole of God’s action in the world and in our lives may
just seem so time-worn and over-familiar to us, that we
question the relevance of it all.
If that happens, at some point in our conversion
process, we like Paul, may need a conversion of
thinking. As I said, Paul surely knew about Jesus, and
as a dedicated Pharisee he certainly knew of God’s
promise to send the Messiah. So, why was he persecuting
Christians? It wasn’t because they claimed to be
following the Messiah, nor was it because the followers
of "The Way" seemed to be unorthodox Jews. There
had been and continued to be many who called themselves
the Messiah and each had his own followers. Furthermore,
there were any number of branches of Judaism and
Christianity started out as just one more branch. Paul
and others fanatical Jews were not persecuting members
of these groups.
No, what Paul and the other religious hard-liners
found so offensive about this branch of Judaism, some
called Christianity, was its insistence on welcoming
sinners. The Judaism of Paul required repentance and a
totally changed life. It required adherence to all kinds
of purity laws and good works before a person
could be accepted by God.
A religion that taught salvation by grace, that God
loves people no matter how bad they are, and that God
extends His covenant relationship to them freely without
any works had to be offensive to a man raised to
believe that what he did was more important than what
God had done. Therefore, Paul needed a conversion of his
thinking. And as we study his life and writings we see
indications that he may have needed this conversion of
thinking at other points in his new life in Christ as
well.
In my previous congregation I had a gentleman I
dearly loved. He as a regular at Sunday morning Bible
class, a faithful worshiper, took part in my Tuesday
lesson discussion group and served God in many ways.
But, Jim and I regularly butted heads. This faithful
Christian just could not accept the idea that we are
saved by grace alone. I lost count of the times I
explained this central doctrine of our faith to Jim,
only to hear him say, "But pastor, God expects me to
lived a good life and obey the Commandments in order to
go to heaven."
Thankfully, God is as patient with the conversion of
Jim’s thinking, and your thinking and my thinking, as He
was of Paul’s. He works through
books we read, especially Scripture, and through the
Ananiases He sends to us, in order to continue the
conversion of our thinking throughout our lives.
But again, like Paul, we don’t have to wait until our
hearing and thinking have been perfectly and finally
converted to experience the conversion of our actions.
Paul was taught by Ananias and spent several days
with the disciples in Damascus according to the lesson
from Acts. But even during this time he practiced his
new faith by speaking to his old colleagues and to
others at the synagogue. He now used the gifts of
intellect and speech God had given him to proclaim
Christ.
No one needs a degree from a seminary or even to pass
a test on their knowledge of Scripture and doctrine to
experience a conversion of action. God has given each
Christian gifts necessary to witness to others. No one
needs to be able to describe the inner workings of the
Trinity, explain how Christ is present in, with and
under the bread and wine, or even how we are
saved by grace alone before he/she can proclaim the Good
News. Any and every Christian can share the love of God
in Christ with others. And here is more good news for
us. Every time we live out our faith in word or act, we
allow God to further His conversion of our faith and
life. Somehow, acting on and speaking of what we are
learning reinforces that learning for us and therefore
deepens our conversion.
We may find what we were taught so long ago to be old
and time-worn. We may even envy people who make a
so-called "decision for Christ" in adult life because
they seem so alive in their faith and so excited about
it. We don’t need to though. We need only ask ourselves
the question, "Have you had a conversion" and then open
yourselves to the experience again. Amen.